Ancient Fusion

It's not like the other nights.
Tonight, the passion overflowed.
And the kisses were burning, all over.
The night stretched long, tonight.

Ancient cravings returned.
Lustful eyes.
Two bodies fused, together.
Two became one.
We became me.
Us became I.

The night was long, unusually long.
Blood boiled in the veins.
Around, the silence stopped.
And kneeled.
An aura filled up the dark.
The night was unusual.

Her eyes were wet.
Her lips were speaking.
Some ancient lost language.
The need was in her eyes.
The fear was in her eyes.

The question was in her eyes.
And I answered.

Suddenly all was numb.
My body. My senses. My life.
Time stood still.
Felt a long lost joy.
Ancient happiness overflowed.

Indeed.
It’s been millions of years.

Moments..

Those Wonderful Moments.
I tasted paradise once again.
Yet, the rusted soul cries alone.
On the edges of the Fifth Mountain.
Tears, fall like dried waterfalls.
A strange aura filled up the night.
Tormented soul celebrates,
With the taste of the blood,
Raw red blood.
Long Lost Memories,
Buried deep within,
Awakes.
Zombies of eternal darkness,
Step forward to conquer.
The hope of light,
Overshadowed by the darkness.
Hope lost.
Darkness lurking within.
Still,
The night was wonderful.
The ancient cult master
With the bloody skull in his hand.
Laughs tortuously.
The dawn of the dead, arrived.
Apocalypse is now, anytime.
Suddenly the clock freezes.
Ancient wolves cry again.
And all was silent.

Colourless.

It was all dark. And there was silence.
There were drops of tears. And drops of blood.
And there was the Calculus book.
And the mobile beside.
Raindrops outside. Falling.
Falling silently.
The blood tasted bitter.
But it was all red.
The fan went round.
And round. And Round.
On the bed.
There was a diary.
Full of hopes.Dreams.Memories.
Now Closed.
Outside, there was the red cloud.
And the blue drops.
And the green leaves.
And the white purity.
Inside.
There was me.
Colourless.

Its 14th and a Sunday...Again..

What is this that I am writing..?At just 12 in the midnight today it turned out to be 14th .A 14th.
The question is, why am I so much obsessed with this date? Just because I met her on one such 14th? Maybe. I am clueless. I remember 14th May clearly. I wanted to talk to her, see her, to hear her say…”Neel I love you...”
But some wishes are left incomplete. One thing that amuses me is that once what was a demand is a wish now. Maybe now it’s time to modify those 3 wishes made to fairy godmother!
Anyway, the main fact is that I am missing her. Just at this certain point time! Because it’s now 12:05 am and I am used to talk instead of pressing keyboards!!
Tomorrow is a 14th.Tomorrow is a Sunday.14th of September was a Sunday too. And when it will be 12:40 at noon tomorrow, It will be 9 months !9 months that I have known how to love,9 months I have known who I am and what I can be!
And now, it’s night. And everybody’s asleep. Everyone’s waiting. For the dawn. For the sun of rise again. So that they can wake up.
But don’t you think I need to wake up too? Dont you think I need to feel the sun again? Come on...I am not that bad I guess!
This darkness is haunting me now. And I can’t bear those nightmares which were once beautiful dreams...I am all alone...Here...I am lost...I am afraid...I can’t face this darkness any more..I want to wake up...
Still...There’s darkness around me. And the chilling cries of silence are tormenting my mind. I just, at this certain point of time, I feel I need to die. No matter whatever I do, no matter how many times I try to flirt, I try to get over…Why at the end of the day I am reminded of her...In one way or the other..?I just don’t have words anymore…And all I can do now is just wait...Wait for something which is not worth waiting for…still I wait…and I listen to what Rasmus sings…



I wish you here tonight with me to see the northern lights
I wish you were here tonight with me
I wish I could have you by my side tonight when the sky is burning
I wish I could have you by my side

Cause I've been down and I've been crawling
Won't back down no more

Can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
Down on me, I'm still standing
Can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
Conscience clear, I'm still standing here

burns like a thousand stars, though you are light years away
burns like a thousand stars or more

you're up there, you're always with me
smiling down on me

can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear, I'm still standing here

It's something sacred, something so beautiful
something quiet to ease my mind
when the pressure's taking me over and over

cause I've been down and I've been crawling
pushed around and always falling
you're up there, you're always with me
smiling down on me

can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear, I'm still standing here
can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing here
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear, I'm still standing here

Broken Dreams..

If I start writing about her I may end up writing an entire book. Just at this moment, the rain is falling outside and inside me too…and now, just at this very moment..I really am missing her again..I just wish I can listen to her voice once again.Both, the rain and her voice can soothe my body and soul, and take me to a state of complete trance. I revisit our dream of getting drenched in the rain together...When we planned about walking together in the rain, holding hands…And in a place where there is nobody, I would hold her in my arms.I would see her beautiful eyes...and get lost in them...Those beautiful kohl eyes...The water droplets in her face, her nose, her lips…I would kiss her cheek, her nose, I would look into her beautiful lips and get myself drenched in them..And as the rain would be falling over us...More and more...And we would be holding each other...More and more tightly...And the wind sending shivers down our spines..And I would hold her tight..Never to let her go..We would be close...and more close..Until we become one..Together..Our heart, and our bodies…would be bound by countless strings of eternal desires…and we would be burnt..In the flame of love..Together we would burn together..as we look into each other’s eyes..I would hold her in my arms and close my eyes and dream of those beautiful dreams we dreamt together..Those carpets, floors, furnitures, beds, bedsheets, curtains, paints..those dreams of waking up each other, those dreams of making breakfast, those dreams of bunking offices, those dreams of going for a vacation…Those intimate moments we would spend together, those moments when we would wake up in each other’s arms and those moments when we will fight but later makeup..I would dream of the days when I am hers and she is fine..Forever..And for always..And I would hold her tight and whisper in her ears..”Baby..I am blessed to have you..And baby…u r just mine..I love you sooo much..And will always do so..Forever..And ever..”And she would be the only thing I would desire then..It would be just her..Just her..Her..

Sweetheart..I don’t know where you are now or what you are doing now…But aren’t you feeling the same thing? Aren’t you dreaming of the dreams we had, the times we spend, when we are together..Aren’t you missing me baby…When I say when I miss you like anything..Every single moment..Every single second..Don’t you feel when I cry out loud and say “I need you baby..I need you shona..”

There were so many times I needed you, I wished you were here..And all I did was cry and missing you..It was just you, it is and will be…I just don’t want anything sweetheart…I just love you..And need you baby..I just want you back..Back in my arms..I just can’t stop loving you..Love you always..

But I Know you won’t be back, I know you are gone. But…still…..Where ever you are I know you are happy, because that is the thing that I only desire. Smile always. All I am is just for you. After all, it’s not every day that your mind ‘blue’s you away….