If I start writing about her I may end up writing an entire book. Just at this moment, the rain is falling outside and inside me too…and now, just at this very moment..I really am missing her again..I just wish I can listen to her voice once again.Both, the rain and her voice can soothe my body and soul, and take me to a state of complete trance. I revisit our dream of getting drenched in the rain together...When we planned about walking together in the rain, holding hands…And in a place where there is nobody, I would hold her in my arms.I would see her beautiful eyes...and get lost in them...Those beautiful kohl eyes...The water droplets in her face, her nose, her lips…I would kiss her cheek, her nose, I would look into her beautiful lips and get myself drenched in them..And as the rain would be falling over us...More and more...And we would be holding each other...More and more tightly...And the wind sending shivers down our spines..And I would hold her tight..Never to let her go..We would be close...and more close..Until we become one..Together..Our heart, and our bodies…would be bound by countless strings of eternal desires…and we would be burnt..In the flame of love..Together we would burn together..as we look into each other’s eyes..I would hold her in my arms and close my eyes and dream of those beautiful dreams we dreamt together..Those carpets, floors, furnitures, beds, bedsheets, curtains, paints..those dreams of waking up each other, those dreams of making breakfast, those dreams of bunking offices, those dreams of going for a vacation…Those intimate moments we would spend together, those moments when we would wake up in each other’s arms and those moments when we will fight but later makeup..I would dream of the days when I am hers and she is fine..Forever..And for always..And I would hold her tight and whisper in her ears..”Baby..I am blessed to have you..And baby…u r just mine..I love you sooo much..And will always do so..Forever..And ever..”And she would be the only thing I would desire then..It would be just her..Just her..Her..
Sweetheart..I don’t know where you are now or what you are doing now…But aren’t you feeling the same thing? Aren’t you dreaming of the dreams we had, the times we spend, when we are together..Aren’t you missing me baby…When I say when I miss you like anything..Every single moment..Every single second..Don’t you feel when I cry out loud and say “I need you baby..I need you shona..”
There were so many times I needed you, I wished you were here..And all I did was cry and missing you..It was just you, it is and will be…I just don’t want anything sweetheart…I just love you..And need you baby..I just want you back..Back in my arms..I just can’t stop loving you..Love you always..
But I Know you won’t be back, I know you are gone. But…still…..Where ever you are I know you are happy, because that is the thing that I only desire. Smile always. All I am is just for you. After all, it’s not every day that your mind ‘blue’s you away….
