What is this that I am writing..?At just 12 in the midnight today it turned out to be 14th .A 14th.
The question is, why am I so much obsessed with this date? Just because I met her on one such 14th? Maybe. I am clueless. I remember 14th May clearly. I wanted to talk to her, see her, to hear her say…”Neel I love you...”
But some wishes are left incomplete. One thing that amuses me is that once what was a demand is a wish now. Maybe now it’s time to modify those 3 wishes made to fairy godmother!
Anyway, the main fact is that I am missing her. Just at this certain point time! Because it’s now 12:05 am and I am used to talk instead of pressing keyboards!!
Tomorrow is a 14th.Tomorrow is a Sunday.14th of September was a Sunday too. And when it will be 12:40 at noon tomorrow, It will be 9 months !9 months that I have known how to love,9 months I have known who I am and what I can be!
And now, it’s night. And everybody’s asleep. Everyone’s waiting. For the dawn. For the sun of rise again. So that they can wake up.
But don’t you think I need to wake up too? Dont you think I need to feel the sun again? Come on...I am not that bad I guess!
This darkness is haunting me now. And I can’t bear those nightmares which were once beautiful dreams...I am all alone...Here...I am lost...I am afraid...I can’t face this darkness any more..I want to wake up...
Still...There’s darkness around me. And the chilling cries of silence are tormenting my mind. I just, at this certain point of time, I feel I need to die. No matter whatever I do, no matter how many times I try to flirt, I try to get over…Why at the end of the day I am reminded of her...In one way or the other..?I just don’t have words anymore…And all I can do now is just wait...Wait for something which is not worth waiting for…still I wait…and I listen to what Rasmus sings…
I wish you here tonight with me to see the northern lights
I wish you were here tonight with me
I wish I could have you by my side tonight when the sky is burning
I wish I could have you by my side
Cause I've been down and I've been crawling
Won't back down no more
Can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
Down on me, I'm still standing
Can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
Conscience clear, I'm still standing here
burns like a thousand stars, though you are light years away
burns like a thousand stars or more
you're up there, you're always with me
smiling down on me
can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear, I'm still standing here
It's something sacred, something so beautiful
something quiet to ease my mind
when the pressure's taking me over and over
cause I've been down and I've been crawling
pushed around and always falling
you're up there, you're always with me
smiling down on me
can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear, I'm still standing here
can't you stop the lies, falling from the skies
down on me, I'm still standing here
can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised
conscience clear, I'm still standing here
2 comments:
hhhmm.. so neel u still love hr sooooooo much....!!! isnt it.... evn ur words r short 2 xpress d feelings u hv 4 hr....
neways hope sumday she'll return 2 u.... !! n if shes nt.. dn 4gt hr as a sweet n pleasnt nightmare..!!!
I know too much 2 be able 2 comment on this post without any biases...Listen 2 "diamonds n rust" by joan baez...u'll be able 2 connect 2 the sentiment...
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